Fertility was not something that we struggled with conceiving Mac. So when we started trying for Baby #2, we didn’t foresee any issues. Especially since we had adopted a clean living, organic lifestyle. We accepted that it may take a few tries and after those first few tries we blamed the pressure of deployments. I kept on with Nutrition and Chiropractic and even got acupuncture once. I did get pregnant one time about a year into trying but miscarried at five weeks.

Then the negative pregnancy tests went on month after month. My body was even being kind of crazy aside from not getting pregnant. I was gaining weight despite good nutrition and exercise. Although, exercise was tougher because I couldn’t run anymore. I got terrible headaches anytime I ran more than a half mile that lasted until I could sleep them off or get adjusted.

Getting pregnant was on a back burner with a lot of relationship and personal issues having taken over but we still so wanted another baby.

Then last September I was at a seminar for MFT and the doctor who teaches it asked me when I got there how I was doing. My overall health was on an upward trend since I had met him the year prior and he had started testing me. But still I didn’t know quite how to explain how I felt.. my gut was off, I was sensitive to damn near every food I ate, my supplements weren’t doing anything and I just plain felt like I wasn’t being nourished. Dr. Frank suspected then that my issues were emotional and at the next break he helped me clear out three emotions that he had found to be priorities, one from my thyroid, one from my uterus and one from near my chin, in my jaw.

I don’t know how to explain what happened when those emotions were brought to the surface, confronted and released. It wasn’t a feeling of being lighter but it did feel like something physically left my body.

The next morning I could see farther into the future than I had in months, maybe years. Before it was black (or just dark) and now I was thinking of things I could accomplish and I was excited in general, a feeling that had eluded me for a long time. That day my outlook seemed only to continue to improve and I drove home from Chicago eager to get my life back. I was hesitant to say anything about what had happened because I didn’t know if this would last?

On Monday, Jasper texted me and said that he was happy I had gone to Chicago. He said he wasn’t sure what I had learned or done there but that I was different when I got back, he said he noticed even my skin was better. And I seemed happier.

Immediately food felt like it was nourishing me again and I had energy to do things I hadn’t in months. And it never wore off. A few weeks after getting back from Chicago, I brought Jasper coffee at work on a random Thursday afternoon. He hugged me when I left and my breasts felt tender. I looked at the calendar when I got back in the car to try and figure out when my last period was. I didn’t know for sure but I had a ballpark idea and realized I could be late.

That night I took a pregnancy test and handed a faint plus sign to Jasper with a shaking hand. And today I’m 36 weeks pregnant with our second son.

It was hard to tell in the first trimester what was what because I was sick all of the time but once that wore off, my wellness continued to improve and at a rate rivaling that of that first week after the emotional clearing. I’ve spent the past few months growing a super human and I very seriously feel like I have my life back.

As a Clinical Nutritionist, it was disheartening to feel out of control over something I help so many women with in my practice but I hope my story gives hope to those who thought they have exhausted options or weren’t meant to get pregnant. Nutrition is a huge component and I see tough fertility cases broken all the time with the correct supplementation and lifestyle changes, but for a few, like me, that won’t do it. But that doesn’t mean it can’t happen.

To everyone on this journey, love and light.